If Only You Knew; What You Wanted To Say..

Saturday, May 9, 2009

7:53 PM

If Only You Knew..

“If Only You Knew What You Wanted To Say..”

Even if you knew, would you have the courage to breathe in, and let the words flow out as your heart speaks its words to the world?

As humans we seem so afraid to stand up and actually say what we want to say and feel what we want to feel. Even if we can on occasion set our fears aside and let words flow, we rarely seem to hold the confidence to stand behind those thoughts, feelings, emotions..

We build walls, we shut people out, we shut ourselves out.. We do it because we think we are protecting ourselves, but really aren’t we denying ourselves the rights to grow as individuals, to feel true feelings and know the truths of the people and the things that surround us?

We fear so much if we are true to ourselves that someone might not like it and leave our lives, so instead we absorb ourself within and dissolve into our own emotions and feelings never allowing the truths to be heard, when none of us know what might come of those truths escaping your heart, floating out of your lips and hitting the world. Anyone’s heart can make a difference in the world, if only we would allow ourselves..

We all in reality live a life of lies were truths are very rarely known.. On the outside it might not seem that way, but when it comes to it, it’s the truth.

If we cannot allow ourselves to speak whats true in our hearts, we are lying to ourselves before we lie to anyone else.. Speak your heart, let it be heard, because it is beautiful.. And it is true.. True to you.. And true to your heart..

"Every once in a while, people step up. They rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you. And sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard. But if you look close enough, you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, I mean if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back."

People disappoint so much.. Too many people lack commitment to the ones they say the love..

I find myself so disappointed in people all the time.. People who cant be true.. People who cant stick around because someone new comes into their lives.. People who cant understand how you feel, and instead tell you how they think you should before walking away..

I wonder a lot of the time, if I get so disappointed in myself and people because I expect too much of myself.. And I expect people to be like me, I expect them to care like I do, and want to reach out, and touch, help, feel like I do. But they don’t.. And I am hurt and disappointed..

I cant make people feel like I do no matter how much my heart wants me to.. But that doesn’t take away from the fact that when someone tells me all these things of how much I mean to them and how much they will always be there that I sink into these words that feel like truths, only to find out later that those were words that were truth for those moments, but not for the future as we were both once lead to believe..

I can only move forward in truths; albeit they may only be for a few or for many moments, but in that all these moments together create something beautiful, unique and new, they create a life, my life, that’s never been lived before, and never been told before.. With these truths, and feelings I can change the world, or I can close my heart and never share anything that I have learnt nor felt in this world.. In this life, that only I can change, move through and hold.. It’s a precious thing.. And each moment, we seem to be wasting it away in half truths, silences and sealed lips..

Open your heart, and let it be heard..