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THE GIRL
a beautiful disaster..

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ABOUT A GIRL
story of her life..

I feel old now Im 24.. Pass the anti-wrinkle cream!

Ive learned alot over the past few years.. Ive learnt that most things arent ever as they seem.. People change.. Promises dont last.. But life still goes on..

I have an acute fear of odd numbers! I hate red hot drinks or food but will only take red hot baths or showers. I like my baths with copious amounts of pink bubbles.

I dont think I could go one day without listening to Music. SERIOUSLY! My favorite musicians of all time are The Carpenters and Paramore. Odd I know.

I miss the nights we put the world to rights on back door step. I like my Tea with milk and 2 sugars. I can play the flute and the drums. What a combo!

I officially suck at computer games!! ESPECIALLY the Wii! ;)

I hate pretty much all photos of me.. I see flaws I cannot stand in every single one of them.. People assume as I have so many that I love pics of myself.. That couldnt be the furthest thing from the truth.. I just think that these days are ones I want to remember when I am old.. You dont get it? Thats ok.. Dont sweat it!

Ive always wanted one of those Brooke Davis/P Sawyer kinda friendships.

Cherry Cokes from Sonic with extra whole cherries are the best drink ever. FACT. Im currently a lota bit obsessed with CSI & One Tree Hill.

I want to go to the moon.

I need to meet Kat Von D! If I die without a tattoo from her, my life wont be complete..

Lime body spray reminds me of year 6 of Primary School when we went on a school trip to London.

I live my life by song lyrics. Im sure I could write my life story in those little square emoticon thingys & I think Floyd laughs at me.

I LOVE photos & photoshop.. I cant wait to buy my first SLR this summer! I want to take amazing photos that mean something to someone! ♥

Converse for life!

I think religion and politics are a waste of time but some people have to hold onto them to get through the days.. But if that makes them happy, who am I to judge. I hate preachers, if I wanted your opinion, id ask.. Quit getting all up in my business.

I hate homophobes and racists.. Its not big and its not clever!

Ellen Degeneres is THE best talk show host. FACT!

I think that the English Justice System sucks! If you get a life sentence in Prison, if you play it good while you are in you could serve just 12 years.. Since when was 12 years a life time? DUMB! Life sentence should equal.. The rest of your life!

People say that the beauty of a woman should not be defined by the clothes that she wears and the makeup she applies.. I say.. It it makes you happy sweetheart, go right ahead!

I want to do something great with my life.. I want a job where what I do means something to someone.. I just want to be happy, and see other people happy.. Thats all that matters..

CURRENT FIXES
the little things..

weheartit.com
Lastfm.com
Twitter
Kat Von D
Pandora Braclets
Vanilla
Cheryl Cole
B&W Photos
Photoshop
CSI
Liquid Eyeliner
Fake Tan
One Tree Hill
Sexy Heels
The L Word
Diet Cherry Coke
Dr Pepper Zero
Cadbury Creme Eggs
Photography
Lush Baths
Black Nail Varnish
Nanna Blankets

LINKS
stalk me..

facefuck
myspaz
tweet tweet
we♥it

QUOTES
to live by..

because its only when youre tested that you truly discover who you are. and its only when youre tested that you discover who you can be. the person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the heartache and fear of what life has.. ♥

most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway. but sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. we know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.. ♥

have you ever wondered what marks our time here? if one life can really make an impact on the world... or if the choices we make matter? i believe they do. and i believe that one man can change many lives. for better... or worse.. ♥

do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. the world you desire can be won. it exists. it is real. it is possible. it's yours.. ♥

we all make different choices and we need different things. but i think eventually we learn to define happiness for ourselves, on our own terms, in spite of the pain other people have caused us.. ♥

Saturday, May 16, 2009
3:03 PM
Who Knew..



I've spent my entire life trying to figure "IT" out; "IT" being life. That's 23 years, 4 months, 10 days and about 7 hours and approximately 56 minutes, trying to figure out exactly the purpose of it all; my purpose, anythings purpose. Thanks to my Dad; STILL trying a good 12 years on, to figure out if the sky really is blue, and the grass really is green, or if I just think that because I was told so..

But lately, Ive finally realise that its really not that critical of a focus point in this life. I could spend my entire life criticising, contemplating and taking apart every single moment, event and person in my life, but in doing that, am I not wasting the whole beauty of life?

In the same sense, I don't believe in religion, I don't. I think its hypocritical and ridiculous. I believe in God; sure, on my own terms, but I cannot dedicate my life and every waking second to something that I only believe but cannot be sure to be true. I guess I have alot and I mean ALOT of questions, I want to understand how it works. I guess that's just how I am.

I'm not one for being lead blindly into anything, thanks to my Dad, but I guess in life you have no choice but to for alot of the part, either that or you will never really enjoy life at all..

Following without knowing is hard for me, but honestly I'm trying to, to some extent. I mean sure, I'm still going to question and wonder, but honestly I'm so tired of trying to work everything out and over analyse everything!!

I'm more so tired of trying to figure myself out. I might not know who I truly am, but I know what I am not. I am not sure anyone really honestly knows who they are. Isn't that the purpose of life to spend your life making yourself and finding yourself? If it were the case that we were meant to know who we were, then we would never suprise ourselves, nor would we fail or not know what we want..

Maybe its true that as people we are very changeable throughout life. Like anything, a house for example, we are built on foundations that are unchangeable and remain the same though sometimes shaky before being strengthened, but everything else ontop and around that is changeable and moulded as the seasons come and go, and things touch us. We are forever changing on the outside, and I believe the same goes for the inside. I believe now in things I would never have deemed possible 5 years ago. I love things I've never loved before. And done things I never would have believed possible for me in my life.

I'm continually worried about what people will think of me and in that sense I think I've always tried to blend in with the masses rather than be myself, and finally I'm allowing myself to be who I want to be, and express how I feel, and what is in my heart.

A friend told me lately, that America has changed me. I dont believe it to be so; I believe life has changed me over the past few years but more specifically to the points they made, America has allowed me to break the pattern I was in, and has allowed me to be myself rather than conform.

Judge me how you will, that goes without saying. I will always stand up for what I believe in and going forward defend who I am and want to be.

LIVE, LAUGH abut most importantly, LOVE; the people you surround yourself with and the life YOU choose to live..

Sammy